rindu.

BISSMILLAHIRAHMANNIRAHIM..

Peace be upon you.

02:16---02March2018. Just going to share about my feelings. Its about why do I feel like something is missing from my life? Yes I know. Rindu adalah fitrah kita sebagai manusia dan hambaNya. But if you can understand whats going on.. Dare I say,  you will not going to be this strong. 

It hurts so bad when someone special in your life is not there... To support you. To care about you. to concern about you. People makes mistakes. I do, you do. I apologize to everyone. I am truly, deeply sorry. For not being good. I am just an ordinary girl who far from perfect. I am not going to hurt you. I do not want to hurt you... I told Him(Rabb) lot about you. Then I cried... I told again... and again.. I cried. 

 I miss you.. so much.

Do good and good will come to you, babes.

It's me,
bibiey.

Sahabat~

Assalamualaikum... 

Tetiba rasa nak menulis tentang sahabat.. Siapa lagi kalau bukan mereka.. Entah kenapa hati ni rasa longlai bila kepala tetiba nak fikir pasal persahabatan. Maybe its hurt to keep reminding what happens before. Still in my mind, 2016.. I have changed from science stream to economy stream. ( im recall this story bcs im just missing my bffs). Masa tu aku memang dh discuss dgn ibupapa. and need to see cikgu-cikgu. Even pengetua and pkp sendiri pun. Its only me yg nak tukar aliran tu, I mean yg betul2 confirm. Tukar sbb rasa tkleh catch up dgn biology addmath. Yes, balik balik tu memang nangis. Takut. Takut orang mula pandang rendah.. Takut kawan-kawan dekat aliran sains dh tk rapat mcam dulu. Takut.. takut tkboleh dgn environment baru. kelas baru. classmates baru.. Hanya Allah yang tahu perasaaan time tu. Bila tgk sekumpulan girls. Nak join pun segan sebab yelah mcm pendatang asing  or takut diorang tak selesa. Lama2 everything went well. Its me, Yaya and Syahrul yang tukar aliran.. and that time ada one of our classmates dah rasa tercabar dgn kitaorg siap cakap nak fight lagi siapa lagi bnyk A. Kitaorang dah la down dgn baru tukar aliran..  lpstu penerimaan mcm ni.. To be honest, we all just nak lari dari stress setiap kali kelas addmath blank+hang. and mcm2 la sebab tu.. Aku memang rasa alone sangat sejak tukar aliran.. me and yaya punya tempat duduk jauuh. Tk sekali pun. I dont why.. my friends dkt science stream pun dh tk rapat. Faham.. memang dari awal lagi faham dan bersedia yang aku memang akan kena rasa macam mana seorang diri, tak boleh nak bergantung dkt sesiapa. Well, bagi lelaki mmg la. "alah tkkan tkboleh sorang2." but for us, girls. memang kebanyakkan berkelompok kan? bila seorang diri rasa tu lain..

start from that, aku memang banyak masa dengan sendiri. Kadang-kadang, nak rest pun malas. Duduk tempat sendiri and menulis. yes, kami maybe nampak rapat tapi dah tk macam dulu.. Entah. Susah nk ckp. I miss my old days........

Dulu, kitaorang memang rapat.. diorang panggil my mom pun ibuu. my dad pun papa. Kejap tidur rumah aku, kjp rumah diorang..  We all bukann macam bffs tapi dah macam siblings. BBQ sesama. Gambang Waterpark sekali.. Pakai kain sarung and baca novel atas katil. the position kita orang duduk tu memang mcm twins la mashaAllah hahaha. Ada yang kentut lepastu boleh senyum-senyum lagi. Ada yang kentut lepastu hala kan punggung ke jendela sbb takut berbau adoiii.. Solat jemaah lepastu discuss sape yang nak imankan.. Gelak kuat-kuat dekat kedai makan. Jeling menjeling musuh haha.. cover tk siap homework..  Makan banyak-banyak. Merempit tak pakai helmet. Makan otok-otak dan satar atas batu depan pantai. Sangat banyak kenangan. Nangis sama-sama.. gembira sama-saama. Tapi semua tu dulu.. Sekarang dah lain.. Nak keluar makan semeja pun susah.. 

Alangkah indahnyaa.. Qah.. amy.. dilah.. kita boleh kumpul lagi macam dulu tanpa rasa awkward. Peluk kuat-kuat time jumpa. Gelak sakan tk tengok kiri kanan.. demi Allah aku rinduu.. rindu sangat.

Betul la.. Semua ni... Semuanya milik Allah SWT. Kita hanya pinjam dariNya. Bila Allah boleh bagi kita kebahagiaan.. Allah juga boleh tarik kebahagiaan tu dengan sekelip mata. 

Semoga kita sama-sama berjaya dunia akhirat. Dapat banggakan parents masing-masing. Aamiin...

Sedikit nukilan dari sahabat yang sentiasa merindui kita,

Bibiey.

Nur Afieqah

Nur Adilah

Amelia Natasha

 

 

A good starting?

Bissmillahirahmnirahim...

Assalamualaikum. Hi guys! Believe it or not this is my first time.. Nothing much to say. Just glad that I have an another place or another solution to share hows my life. Fyi, this before I had a diary since 2009. hahaha that time I'm only year 4😝. My diary has been read by my brother. Arghhh I'm so careless or he's too much? Just forget. Thats all.

loves,
B.